February 16, 2020

The past 5 years I’ve had a pretty ordinary moment happen every few months. It’s become part of my life and one I was hoping was going to come to an end. This week was a week I’d been longing for for 5 whole years. It was supposed to be discharge week from the hospital. It didn’t happen.

It’s typical, I’ve waited five years and then six weeks before I’m discharged I notice something and that something is being looked at. A mole appeared, which didn’t look too great. Appeared out of nowhere and thats a pretty big thing for someone thats been told they had skin cancer.

Tuesday morning I was so excited to finally be rid of the hospital visits but it just wasn’t meant to be. I’m back in 3 months. Even though I was expecting it, it sort of hit me like a train. I found it really hard to digest. Not because I needed to go back but because I had it in my head I was being discharged.

I need to push it back and forget about it, because it will play havoc with my mental health. Life is cruel, life is so so cruel and just when you think you’re winning your knocked off that pedal stool and feel yourself right back to square one. I’m hoping there is no change.

3 months is a long wait for someone as anxious me. I had a pretty big meltdown, cried most of the day if Im honest. But friends talked down and I soon came to realise that all is not bad. It’s good. I am being looked after, checked on and hopefully in 3 months it will be my day, and I will be free of hospitals and doctors.

If you want to find out more about The Ordinary Moments, the pop over to Donna’s blog here

The Ordinary Moments

You Might Also Like


  • Reply Susan Mann February 17, 2020 at 16:25

    I am so sorry to hear that. I know it’s hard and such a worry. I hope things improve and you don’t have to go through too much more. Hugs xxx

  • Reply Donna February 22, 2020 at 18:46

    Oh I feel for you. We have a history of skin cancer in my family and because of that I am so overly paranoid about sun protection, moles and general skin care. It’s always in my mind and so I can relate to this so much. I hope the months pass swiftly and you’re discharged soon x

  • Reply Rachelswirl February 23, 2020 at 02:12

    Oh sweetheart – life is indeed so very cruel. Hugs xxx

  • Leave a Reply

    This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.